Wee Little Prayer Book

Couldn't sleep well last night... I was thinking about divorce and what it might entail and mean down the road a bit. We had our first appointment with a counselor yesterday, after which, I agreed to suspend actions toward divorce for what ever time it takes to do six appointments with our counselor. However, I've been finding it difficult to suspend thoughts about divorce. Last night (until I finally fell asleep just before dawn) I could find no way ease my mind. When I did sleep, odd dreams kept partially waking me.

I got up early to go to my OA meeting, which felt good. My shoulders dropped and my breathing softened as we recited the serenity prayer. I told the group about divorce thoughts, counseling and how staying on my meal plan and abstinence is a welcome link to sanity for me right now. After I spoke, the room was silent for some moments before the next person began to talk. Hearing others talk, put it all in better perspective for me. Some of the drama drained from the situation with my husband as the others in the group spoke about their lives, failures, successes and hopes.

My husband and I are just people and, like others, we have our troubled times. We get through those times and make some changes or we don't.

Going through some of my old papers last evening, I found a prayer that I wrote 5 or 6 years ago. A friend was going on a spiritual quest, a solo walking journey across Norway. She planned to spend the nights in huts, shelters or simply rig a simple nylon shelter in clearings. Admiring her purpose, I made her a wee little book to take with her and wrote a prayer in the book. Somewhere along the way, she intentionally left the book on a shelf in one of the huts so that the prayer would remain there for others. This is the book (penny shows size).


This is the prayer I wrote and inscribed on the pages of the book:

Calling
all the powers
of the universe...
Let there be kindness
Let there be respect
Let there be forgiveness and forgiving
Let there be peace
Let there be understanding
Let us listen to each other
Let us hear each other
Let there be brotherhood
Let there be stewardship
Oh, let there be love

My prayer to the universe at this moment is to let me apply my own words to myself and my husband.