Sunday, June 26, 2011

I Am a Compulsive Overeater

Being sick and coughing my head off for 2.5 months has tried my patience (Lord, please let me never suffer a long-term illness... I just don't do it very well). I've had no trouble remaining abstinent on my binge foods, no trouble at all with that.

However, I see that I'm still a compulsive overeater. For example, we bought TWO giant bags of brown rice/black bean chips at Costco about a weeks ago. Yummy, crisp, not entirely unhealthy... at least they have some fiber and lower fat/sodium than most chips. The first opened bag sits on the counter by our stove, the top rolled down and clipped with a close pin.

Not at mealtime, but between lunch and dinner, the "fever" hits me. I go to the kitchen and scan the shelves and the refrigerator. Eyes light on chips. Ah-ha, just what I need. Unroll the top, grab a handful, put them on the stove, close up the bag, and munch those yummy little morsels one at a time.

Ummmmm, those were good... think I need some more. Repeat steps x - y above, another handful on the stove. Close bag and munch.

Ummmmmm, those were really yummy... yep, more would be good and I do deserve them after all I've been through. Yet another handful on the stove. Close bag and munch.

Ooooops. Alarm bell goes off. This is compulsive overeating! I don't DO compulsive overeating anymore. I really don't. STOP! Hold it! No more. I quit.

Next day, same scenario... same bag of chips. Same repeating pattern. Once again the third handful awakened the realization of what I was doing.

Today? No chips. Right after scanning the shelves, the realization came. I fixed myself a cup of hot tea and departed the kitchen.... YAY!!!!

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Gratitude for today: Ron Mann's documentary staring Woody Harrelson called Go Further, which is entertaining, informative, fun and possibly life-changing in some ways for me and my husband. Also, modern drugs (I feel 5% better today), my husband (who suggested I stay home this evening rather than go to a vintage tall ship sailing event with him), cyber friends, and earth.


  1. Yay! So easy to fall into that habit or trap or whatever we call it.

  2. Whew!! Caught yourself before a bad habit formed. Congratulations!

  3. Yay, you! It's one thing to see what you're doing, but quite another to see what you're doing and stop. I think that's even less easy to do when you've been stuck with a lengthy illness. Congratulations!

  4. You know what, PB?
    I don't even buy those things -
    Chips etc. They are like crack to me.
    Good for you to walk on by.
    I'm into broth these days.
    A little cup really satisfies!

  5. Yay! Well done spotting the danger signs and putting on the breaks. I am proud of you.

    5% better today, if that doubles every day, you'll be doing cart wheels by the end of week :-)

  6. Congratulations on your new step to a wholer self (this is not English, I know... but you will know what I mean) AND on feeling better. Hope the other 95% will kick in soon.


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