My priorities are unbalanced or a little off-kilter. Right now it seems I'd rather eat than be healthy. Many self-care things have slipped away since I've been working on the book. I exercise less and I eat more. Some part of me still believes that comfort lies in food and that if I'm working hard on something, I don't need to make time to walk or do my toning exercises. What part is that?
The entitlement part? The part that says: If I am burdened in any way, I deserve to eat. Does it help? NO! Does it make me feel better? NO! Does it get the work done. NO! (I didn't want to write "no" there, because eating seems so forever linked to good and productive writing for me). But, truthfully, the answer has to be no. I don't even test it.
Could I test the hypotheses? Could I for JUST ONE DAY eat according to my food plan (3 sensible meals, no seconds, no snacks) and see if I accomplish any good writing? Could I just do that much? Could I make that a priority? Yes, I certainly could. But will I? What if I say, Yes, I will do that. I will do it tomorrow. What if I say, I will write a report about how it went tomorrow night. Nothing but entitlement to stop me. One of our other OA members says, I can do anything for one day. Surely if that person can, I can too. Can vs. will. Can and will. OK, it's a deal then. I will conduct this experiment for one day. Maybe it will be a myth-buster. Maybe I don't need food to write. Maybe I do. Tomorrow is the test day.
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Today's gratitude: Leah, my fabulous Sony Cyber-shot camera (again), ripe cherry tomatoes (again), everybody who gave support and comments about the situation with my husband (which is much improved right now), pansies, drizzle as an occasion to get out the flannel shirts for fall.
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To help set yourself up for success, perhaps having something non-caloric to sip on would help?? I do that, cold iced tea, or hot tea, or whatever you prefer. It really helps. :-)
ReplyDeleteYeah, great experiment. I think you CAN do it for one day and I am WILLING you on from across the pond. I'll be asking the universe to help reach today.
ReplyDeleteI suspect you have the will power to stop snacking, you've demonstrated that by avoiding your binge foods. So how do you summons the will to stop snacking. I think of all those times that I half hearted tried to stop smoking and failed the first day. Then the one time that for some reason I decided that I did NOT WANT to smoke any more and gave up just like that. I don't even know truely why I wanted to stop, I just truely wanted to. What will make you truely want to stop snacking?
You can do it for one day. Start the day with your arm exercises and a good breakfast, then enjoy your snack free day.
Great idea. Will be interested to see how it goes.
ReplyDeleteYou'll do just fine!
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